20 January 2011

"Hindsight is 20/20"

I hate that saying. I think people see the past in way more than 20/20 somedays. You look back and it's more than perfect... but then you start to take stock in  how it ACTUALLY was, and you remember why you're glad to have moved on! Like right now-I might miss being in college. But I don't miss being stressed and I don't miss 100 pg projects...both were a fixture in my college experience, and so I don't wish I was back-because there's lots of classes and things I'm glad to be done with.

I also hate the ways people say they don't 'regret' things. Sure, I wouldn't change anything about how my life has turned out-since I end up with a superfabulous husband and dog- but that doesn't mean I don't look back and think "What the hell was I thinking?!". To me, regret is not about wishing to change what happened. It's just not being proud of every decision.

I prefer "What I know now that I wish I knew then is..."

I wish I had known that my ex wasn't going to amount to anything sooner-then I would've dumped him sooner (Theoretically).

I wish I had known that consistently getting all-over blond highlights would eventually make you look blonde...and that I don't look good blonde.

I need moments of realization like this. Otherwise I can just reminisce about the past and get stuck. Like I am today. ;)I miss my friends, I miss my sorority sisters and advisors, but this is where I'm supposed to be right now. There's no guarantee (and I'm actually pretty sure that it wouldn't be the case) that I'd even have a job.It's very possible that Mr.DeLovely and I would be entirely miserable there.

Here's to discovering more of what Fayettenam has in store for me...


1 comment:

  1. Love this<3 The feelings you described here are a lot of what I felt when we moved to Carson :)


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