14 April 2010

I'm Done.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. I don't feel strong or optimistic today.

I'm sick of the Army. I'm sick of only getting to talk to my husband maybe an hour a day. I'm sick of being alone. I'm sick of not having him here. I know it's nothing like it, but i feel like this is almost a deployment. but after 2.5 years of him being gone, I  just want him home.  Hell, I'll even take in the same time zone with decent cell reception.

I'm sick of my department. I'm going 'on tour' for the next 3 days. I don't want to. A girl complained she's the only senior going on tour....when I reminded her that I was going to her response was 'but I'm staying the whole time'. Yes, I get to come home every night... woopdedamndo. I'd rather stay up there the entire time and have time to do work. I get home at midnight. Plus,  I'm the only senior doing that and the MFA/CDC show. I don't know how in the hell they expect me to graduate when they keep taking time away from me to actually do my homework/study. The saddest part? I have no choice in the matter. I can't say no--I'm on scholarship. And they won't care, they won't say thank you for still doing this. It's just expected, and a girl who bitches about everything will win the best EB senior award. I'm sorry, after 4 years of putting up with crap like this I deserve a medal of some sort. I know it's not all about recognition.... but I would like some. I guess a diploma will suffice.

I'm done. I want to graduate and live with my husband. Is that so much to ask?

1 comment:

  1. *hug* I'm sorry you are going through all this crap. It's not much of a consolation, but it will be over soon. I know, not soon enough but it will be. And you can be with your husband and put all this crap behind you. You may not feel strong now but in the end, this will all have made you so much stronger of a woman for it!


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