I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. I don't feel strong or optimistic today.
I'm sick of the Army. I'm sick of only getting to talk to my husband maybe an hour a day. I'm sick of being alone. I'm sick of not having him here. I know it's nothing like it, but i feel like this is almost a deployment. but after 2.5 years of him being gone, I just want him home. Hell, I'll even take in the same time zone with decent cell reception.
I'm sick of my department. I'm going 'on tour' for the next 3 days. I don't want to. A girl complained she's the only senior going on tour....when I reminded her that I was going to her response was 'but I'm staying the whole time'. Yes, I get to come home every night... woopdedamndo. I'd rather stay up there the entire time and have time to do work. I get home at midnight. Plus, I'm the only senior doing that and the MFA/CDC show. I don't know how in the hell they expect me to graduate when they keep taking time away from me to actually do my homework/study. The saddest part? I have no choice in the matter. I can't say no--I'm on scholarship. And they won't care, they won't say thank you for still doing this. It's just expected, and a girl who bitches about everything will win the best EB senior award. I'm sorry, after 4 years of putting up with crap like this I deserve a medal of some sort. I know it's not all about recognition.... but I would like some. I guess a diploma will suffice.
I'm done. I want to graduate and live with my husband. Is that so much to ask?