Chazown

I love plans. Almost to an unhealthy level.. but just before where it might become a problem. With Mr.DeLovely being in the Army, it's hard to plan much of anything-even vacations or what I'll do on any given night-it all depends on what his unit comes up with for the day/night/week/year.

That said, I need a plan in my life-I need goals. Searching for work (unsuccessfully) for so long makes me feel like an abject failure-I know that's not the case by far, but it's true for me. I don't feel like ME without some direction-some schooling-something on the horizon. and as far as job searching is concerned.... it's hard to have a plan when you never know if something will come up.


So thanks to my bestie, I found and went through the Chazown experience.

"Everyone ends up somewhere, but few end up somewhere on purpose" -CG

I listed past experiences that shaped me, defined personal values, and took a test to determine my spiritual gifts. From there, I wrote a personal vision statement, determined which 'spokes' of my life needed the most work, and set goals.

Curious as to what I came up with?

Values:
Authenticity
Compassion
Encouragement
Family
Growth
Relationships
Commitment

Spiritual Gifts:
Wisdom
Discernment
Encouragement
Service
Guidance

Personal Statement:
I am here to guide and help people grow into  the best version of themselves possible.

Spokes Needing work: Finances and Work

Goals:
Maintain workout routine(5x a week!) and healthy eating plan
Read the bible (and pray over it) daily
Define financial success for me-and then develop a plan to achieve it.
Have (X) amount in the savings account by May
Research Personal training and nutrition programs.
Apply to said programs, become certified in all desired areas by this time next year.

Yep, it's back to 'school' for me. :) I'm excited to start on this new journey! And very thankful Craig Groeschel, my bestie, Mr. DeLovely, and others for spurring me on to be the best me. <3


xoxo,

Being honest with myself about Kids...

Yep. Title pretty much says it all.

Mr. DeLovely and I are family people. We love the ones we came from and want to create our own. We just never had a real idea of the when.

We told people after we got married, that it'd be about 5 years. Why 5? Because people leave you alone if you say five. Longer, they question your sanity. Shorter, they try and give you tips for conception(EW). So we said 5.

5 has never been our plan. Our plan has been-when we can provide for one, and we feel ready. That maybe in more than 5 years, it may be in less than that. I know right now we feel like we could be emotionally ready, but we're not fiscally ready.

So is it crazy that we already have names and nursery ideas? And stances on typical mothering dilemmas?
Boy-Initials will be DZM, and Super Mario Nursery
Girl-Intials will be SFM, and a Paris Nursery.

I will try breastfeeding, I'd prefer to. I'd prefer natural birth because the last time I got an epidural it scared me. I'll take IV meds though. I'm not going to cloth diaper, because I don't have the stomach to do so. I want to make my own babyfood when it gets to that point, our boy will most likely be circumcised, I don't want to have the baby sleep in my bed ALL the time, but I do want it to have a basinette close by for awhile. I'd rather not try CIO when they're young, but I also know that I wouldn't be able to 'rest' with a baby crying like that.


I don't know. We're prepared that if an Oops! kid(Like myself) happens, but it's just weird to be half ready for raising a tiny human. That freaks my shit out.

ah well. Cross that bridge when we come to it. ;)

xoxo,